I was made for Afternoons

head exploding full of plans pulling me this way n that all about whats next what are the options no more study time to do some living perhaps some changing what do the next 20 years hold? where do i want to live? how can i follow my passions? what is worth pursuing? what parts of my life need a desperate prune? what is life giving healing loving? there is an urgency here somewhat perhaps i'm a little preemptive but I see time slip slip slipping away there is so much beauty to see so many experiences yet to have but its not all chasing part of me feels the need to jump (but not off a bridge my friends) to cast off to let go and see where i land holding all this in tension with a beautiful girl the prince and the poet n the hound the basic needs of life can make it seem impossible but to set aside will not help this river keeps flowing the voice keep whispering the heart keeps calling perhaps as old Joe Campbel l said it really is...

150kms North of Perth, I am on retreat at New Norcia. Love been here - it is quiet, ordered and offers space for reflection, and of course, prayer. But I am finding that this time, it is hard to settle in. I suspect this is the result of a frenetic first week at school, and some of the  inner stuff that I came here to address. The pervading questions I have on my mind are " Where am I heading " and " Whats next?" This is not the first time for these query's however. In the past they generally led to a change of job, and in a big move, to joining the Catholic Church. This feels slightly different. I love my job, the many different people I work with, and the personal growth that come out of these close relationships. I couldn't imagine a better place for me right now. I love my family and social life. My immediate family are incredible, and my friends faithful and life-giving. I think I am talking about vision.  Maybe I am asking: What is ...