into the great blue yonder

day of sun
of coffee
and pancakes
of endurance
through long afternoons
(Which as you are aware -
I was made for)

today's theme at the temple
life after death
the great wide open
(to quote Tom P)
the beyond
when love finally conquers all . . .
strange how death
brings up so many emotions for us
fear
dread
denial

as if that breath you just took
will go on forever


the older i get
the less i fear
perhaps I am just fooling myself
but
there is nothing to fear
in the hands of
the mystery
in the end
there is only
love

to be loved
is to be held
to be safe
to be known
for who you truly are

St Iraneus used to say
be fully alive
for there is no greater return
for the gift of life
i want to feel it all
to go deep
to do the really true stuff
to discover who
I am
who you are
sometimes
this is all too much
it requires too much leaving
too much unknowing
which makes me panic
and freeze

but we must go on

when the last breath is taken
the last tear cried
the last word spoken
i want to go into the mystery
with no regrets
but only thanks
and joy.

been quite a day.
peace.