I was made for Afternoons

1. slow burning passion 2. poetry 3. guitars at midnight 4. early morning coffee 5. afternoon naps 6. gelato 7. spring 8. summer 9. france 10. miles davis 11. zen spaces 12. zen gardens 13. merton 14. button down collars 15. ben sherman 16. fred perry 17. doc martens 18. wine 19. italy 20. scooters 21. Weller 22. espresso 23. jamie oliver 24. coltrane 25. henri nouwen 26. cricket 27. pianos 28. 1960's 29. holidays 30. jammin' 31. soul 32. beatles 33. hammond organs 34. long table lunch 35. adidas 36. funk 37. friends 38. mindfulness 39. high mass 40. the jam 41. family 42. inner city 43. long afternoons 44. lemoncello 45. vespa 46. shopping 47. moonlight 48. christmas carols from kings 49. children 50. live music 51. film 52. books 53. art galleries 54. travel 55. trains 56. no agenda 57. the who 58. mod 59. casual 60. lambretta 61. cashed up 62. mindfulness 63. saturdays 64. long weekends 65. country drives 66. long lunches 67. bacon 68. knit tops 69. monks 70. candles 71. lon...

i forgive you if you need my forgiveness i release you from whatever I have bound you with i heal you from the scars and wounds I have inflicted look deep deeper inside to your core to your cave to your heart i see the names i have been called the ignorance with which i have been treated the love denied the hurt dispensed  the ignoring the labeling the failure to be seen doors closed wars raged pain and suffering abound but yet i have been loved adored even i have received gifts to raise the spirit moments of intimacy lasting friendships opportunities undreamed of had second and third chances been healed into new ways found god,  and occasionally lost god again played guitar sung lived for today  all is equal i welcome it all

after three celebrations n long country drives we return a la maison  cricket champagne hit the consumer driven centre n snap up a bargain children holiday with older generation for beaches fishing  n general down time we recover in stages changing the routine sleeping late watching tubes cruising nets cooking together but tomorrow the little uns  return n life takes on a new shape holidays  holiness  the new year will bring the promises of change new ways of being embracing n letting go now is the time to dwell in early morning stillness n mindfullness on the next phase the challange  n the joy of now r you with me freends?

strange time of year this last night paganism reigned in da guise of little 'uns collecting sweets n stuff didn't want mine to do it grumpy dad but da americanism of it all does my head in not to mention da history behind it n my bleak spiritual outook wot amazes me is that people are so unaware of the basis for holloween n buy the candy soft all american version of it tried to address this with some friends but they couldn't grasp what i was on about maybe its just me . . .  2day has easier choice all saints those who lived lives  worthy of memory of re-calling our commitment to be holy i am not much of a saint-lover but if i had to pick my top 5 i would go for: St Benedict of Nursia St Francis de Sales St Henri Nouwen St Thomas Merton St Abhishiktananda just try looking some of them up! 2morrow all souls the real deal lovingly recalling  those we know who have died n asking gods mercy n grace n love for them i have grown into this feast watched how lovingly others interce...

me n the mrs went off to da moovies on saturday saw the new adaption of waugh's brideshead rejigged i made the mistake of reading saturdays oz n seeing da review not worth your time it said but snooty nosed la di da reviewers can get it wrong too sometimes nearly always so we braved the satirical onslaught n sat with a handful of zealots through his beautiful film visually - wow rich colours beautiful soundtrack of solo piano settings from university to country house to italy to morocco n back again the cast ok i suppose well known enough to bring the britishness to life emma thompson a cold hearted roman catholic hate filled disciple the corner stone in some ways but outside of these externals the themes got me the counterpoint of a middle class existence versus the lavish wastefulness n foppery of between wars upper-class wine also featured fairly heavily n you know i am not opposed to that! the intellectual painter n atheist immersed into a fully tridentine Catholicism n all tha...

six: travel whilst i love to roam there is no place like home . . .  i love the idea of travel of british countryside and italian summers of paris in autumn  and new zealand januarys with those i love but fiscal concerns count as does stability n not exhausting my family nor dragging em round the globe this one always surfaces so hold on future we're coming seven: new norica don't get there enough. nough said eight: exercise oh dear oh dear need to walk run swim stretch and do i hmmmmmmmmmm sometimes i am good sometimes i am not so good laziness is an in built part of me n i am getting to the age where I need to move more intake less so freends a little support  if you please and there we stop freends reckon if I was doing this ok the rest would take care of itself ciao for now

one: songs little bits of ideas a chord progression a couplet of lyric a riff maybe only a concept somedays the bits can get put together sometimes what was crap yesterday sounds gold today its a blessing its a curse its part of me two: reading always the next book to get to finally got to newmans apologia pro vita sua tough read but infinitely helpful gotta finish the brothers karamazov  too but russian authors . . .  then there's cooking n sport n philosophy n art n history n fiction n poetry  and maybe even a holy text or three if only I didn't need to sleep . . .  three: praying never really off the list even on a bad day not quite sure what i mean by praying these days but a bit of divine contact silence solitude write the blog some slow psalms seems to make a difference four: the desk doesn't matter whether home nor work the time of the day the liturgical or chronological season the desk is still messy bits here bits there bills deliberately lost letters left unfinish...