beating those dragons and not yourself

schools out
while i should be
glad
tomorrow begins
difficult interviews
issues to be placed on
the table
and i always
find
myself feeling
a little
trepidatious
a little self negative
why can't i trust myself?
my ability?
instincts?
my first reaction is always
fear
flight
self aimed
then i recall
wisdom from others
wait
look with advent eyes
trust
be still
pray
listen
then i welcome
my fear
or flight
listen to it
turn it into
prayer
hope
and that is this afternoons
task
so i'm off

prayers please freends
as i prepare for
tomorrow

i need to know
god is
with us
emmanuel

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