other plans

in my morning briefing
the meditation
the writing
the coffee
the little prince
i often seem to spend time thinking about
what i really want?
do i want this ?
or that?
why do I do this?
or that?
the easier questions are all about
what i dont want ...
i can tell you its not that
its not this
usually what i want is
not what i'm doing right now!
i suppose these are the usual end of year thoughts
"life is what happens when you're busy making other plans"
John Lennon
Nail on the head stuff as usual
living with ifs n butts n maybes n couldves
just dries you out
all the present moment stuff
i know
like
breathing gently
mantra
letting thoughts come and go
just seems to become more important
as i get older
maybe i read it too young
maybe i wasnt ready
who knows
or cares
but it works for me now
seems to become indispensible ...
we were not taught this stuff as littilies
even though then we do it naturally
by about 7 we start to forget
its all plans n future n past n judging n not forgiving n improving
and we forget enjoyment n openness n forgiveness n love n just hanging out
and the moment
its preciousness
its learning value
maybe thats the real message for me
stop worrying
enjoy the moment
whatever you're doing
just dig it

Hey thanks freends
thats great advice
always love our little daily chats
see ya round

christoff

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