a tail from the cheerch

another beautiful day
in the west
littlest littlie and i went to the church
where mrs k does the sounds
he played
and i was
well to be honest
a bit bored
that is not an easy admission to make!
there was a visiting preacher
who
didn’t fit my apophatic
disposition
a bit too sure
very enthusiastic about things
waving his arms about like tai chi on acid
although that thought wouldn’t have occurred to him
no sense of beyond
no mystery of god
no chance of an encounter of the divine with the created
a lot of words
thoughts
ideas
manipulation
exposition
exegesis
and all the while my mind wandering because
usually when it is like this
and i experience this moment
i quietly slip away and read
a lovely little text by the calcutta saint
saviour of the poor and leprous
mother teresa
but the book had gone!
and i looked up and down
in and out
round and round
without luck or success
and so the usual words of comfort
when faced with the concrete block approach
to theological belief
words of contemplation and peace
(you know freends
the usual stuff I write about)
were denied me
so I learnt the lesson today
you can learn to sit still and silent and salient
and be
in the presence
even when the day
is not a help
even when the moment
seems to conspire against you
and so I came home
happy
and wrote this message to you
with love

sirhc nak

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