merry go round

sounds around me
ripples
movement
beginning
eliza and noah already up
watching that box in the corner
come and sit with me kids!
bring in the day in silence
yes noah
you can put out the candle when we're finished
slowly moving
didn't sleep to flash
lots of processing going on
need time
more time
last night we all gathered together
one big eating drinking laughing happy family
the carnage is still present
a glass here
a plate there
no music this morning
just coffee
and a sit
I can still feel them all here
gathered together
celebrating just being
been us
even the littlies get it now
They're coming!
and they bounce around the house
have there own little gathering
a favorite video
fall asleep where they are
or stumble into their beds
smiling
we all smile too
and its not just the red
we warm each others hearts
i want to feel this good all the time
being myself
sharing without pushing
loving without fear
i remember us starting
quietly
10 years ago
not wanting to hurt offend complain
or seem like a nutter
so well mannered we all were
hushed conversations
very correct
no sex politics or religion here
no sir
but now...?
Its all out there
we've seen the highs and the lows
good and bad
being hurt
being healed
loved and lost and loved again
birth and death and new and old
learnt alot
realized we know nothing!
and thats ok
this is true humanity
i find my place here
amongst these
my people
my friends
whom i love
and hope they know it

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